Thursday, April 26, 2012

Poor in spirit

Dear Leo,
I'm so lonely these days.  These months.  I think it's been over a year, actually.  And in some ways, decades.  I am so slow to be weaned of supplemental graces.  Abba gives me all that I need, and I am grateful.  And then I become somewhat dependent upon those gifts, rather than utterly dependent upon Him.  And now, lately, He's been giving me the Grace of fewer graces.  By this I don't mean He has been withdrawing or with-holding anything I need.  Rather, He is giving me more and more simply Himself.  It is my paucity of soul that feels something lack.  May the Lord forgive me for my spiritual gluttony!
~ Mack